Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao

23 April 2010:)

During lesson, Zhong hao was looking at some of his photo on his notebook. Some of it includes our year one photo; I was rather affected by it.

My year 1 life was never great or memorable. I had never been bullied until such an extent that I didn’t even retaliate at all.

Seriously until now I don’t know what I had done that I’m being treated like this.
From my bottom of my heart, I treated her as one of the closer friend at start. Despite that the fact that she speaks without thinking, I’m ok with her.

Gradually I realized, I’m rather offended every time. She loves bad mouth about other in front of me that how much she dislikes the person’s attitude yet when the person is around she behave in another way. Practically she bad mouth about any one that you can name.
After some time, she started to play all those true or dare with the rest whenever they go for dinner.

Reason being I don’t join for the dinner is I knew that I’m never welcome there, go there I will just get shoot by her. I don’t just to protect myself, ignorance is bliss.

It’s never felt good whenever a person comment about me everyday not mentioning those negative comments. I have my feelings and my pride too. I started to sense that she love to suan me in front of the whole class because it’s a open fact that she’s from girl school and this is how they behave.(WTF) I had never mention anything about being hurt by her words to anyone at all not even my girl friend at the point of time.

Imagine every day I had to go school do my projects and entertain such nonsense. She loves to mention the fact that I know a lot guys in school and i behave like some ah lian. Every day without fail she will mention in the whole class or whenever I greet any male fajarian in school. I didn’t want to complete with her or what, she love being the limelight in the class she can go ahead. I just love to talks to everyone.

After a while, everything started to change. They always go for dinner and play true or dare. They will come school and mention about it to me half way and say “IT’S a inside joke”
How on earth am I going to react, these happen pretty often that make me feel that I don’t belong to this class?


She love to mention that in the first bicomm lesson she thought that I’m some ah lian or what. I got very irritated if my first impression to you is that lousy why bother to even talk to me or be friend with me. “DON’T LIKE ME THEN LEAVE ME ALONE”


All these make me hate to go for class gathering or dinner. She organize class outing without me and they will never fail to come back to school and tell me about how much they enjoy the outing or whatever shit .

Even class chalet, I just go for the sake of going because I’m not welcome at all. True enough, when I go there, they will leave in a group without asking me along share their inside jokes.

Even the second sentosa outing is the same. I remembered I told her a few time during that day I won’t be in Singapore. The class outing is on Monday when I just reach Singapore on Sunday’s night. I saw her e-mail during Korea, the mail state –I have no idea where shishi went-
I choose not to reply her e-mail as it won’t make a difference at all.
After I came back then I know she invited everyone to her house for steamboat without me again.
If she really doesn’t wish me to go any class gathering, I won’t care at all. Why keep mention it in front of me for? Tell me how happy the class is without my presence?

Worse thing of all, she does until she hates me a lot and she still have the cheek to ask me for present from my Korea trip?

She hates me to the core and she still got the cheek to request my dad to send her home after every project.

She just treats my dad as what? Taxi driver? You hate me to the core why bother to make use of me? You don’t have money to take cab is it poor shit!人 要穷得有骨气 才不会让人看不起

There’s once I just merely ask about which coach bag should I buy? She announces it to the whole class. What fuck is wrong with buying all these?
She will never let go any chance to defame me or tarnish my reputation

This is not all she had done to me, she will purposely choose a place to sit in lecture hall whereby I can’t join the class either sit a side or behind. In class is also the same thing.

Worse of all, her so called god brother keep bugging me every day and have to entertain him every day.

Even my dad warns me before about her, he can sense it also. Can anyone imagine my days during that time?

I don’t care she hate me ,she cursed my whole family in her hidden blog. If I’m really such a nasty person, you don’t have to insult about my whole family because you will be busy insulting me.

That’s what I thought for the whole day. It’s my polytechnic year 1 life. Who will find it memorable ?

it's just a recall about my poly 1 life. it means nothing
that's why i dont like to make new friends anymore?
if such things happen to you, how will you feel?
forgive and forget? T_T
that's explains everythings all these changes in me.
who will find it memorable? back to top?