Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao

23 April 2010:)

My life seems to be stagnant for the past 18 years.

There’s not much up and down in it, maybe its part of the reason why I am such a boring person. I don’t know why I live in the world for. I trying my best to live to the best and be filial daughter, diligent student and caring friend. But I’m not happy at all.

There are a lot people out there waiting to see me suffering in the future. They said whatever I own and the “comfortable” life that I had was given by my parents, without them I’m nothing. I admit that whatever I had was given by my parents, but I’m not happy at all. They just can’t wait to see me in that sorry state I can’t support myself and I will beg in the streets. These people include marwin which he always feels that he got the right to judge my life and comment about it. His life was in a mess which I don’t feel that he is doing much better than me. It seems that he can’t wait to see me in a sorry state.

It might to be true to others that I might be living in a comfortable life and I should be contented with it. My parent tried to give me whatever I want if it’s not too much. In return, I gave up a lot to exchange for such comfortable life.

I had to stay up strong until I find the meaning of carrying on my life. I seem to live because of others but not for myself. back to top?